“No man has the right to dictate what other men should perceive, create or produce, but all should be encouraged to reveal themselves, their perceptions and emotions, and to build confidence in the creative spirit.”

 Ansel Adams

To be with life, but not of it. 

Life and darkroom glisten as relative concepts. First, we really don't know what's going to come up. We can imagine and plan, but really - we just don't know how the next moment is going to happen. What we see around us is a creation. Some call it an illusion, some a projection, but nevertheless the multisensory impulses that we experience every single second, day and night and with every image are a continuous unfolding. 

 An afterimage is an optical illusion that benefits from contrasty images. When we look at a bright or high contrast scene for a few seconds and close our eyes, we will see that image appear as if over our eyelids. It will be the same image but reversed. The darks become lights and the highlight areas are in shadows. This is such a darkroom related process...

An afterimage is like an after taste. It is not the same thing, it has evolved into something quite distinct. Sometimes the aftertaste reveals more components of the flavour. Likewise, an afterimage can be cropped or extended, it can focus on a particular area, colour or shape of an image that we observed. 

We can safely say that everything that we come in contact with can also be found in our mind. Which one comes first?Well, it's a constant flow of energy. It's like a magnetic field that attracts all the other fields that are of similar polarity. 

There are a few things that come to my mind when I decide to change my ways, when I decide to be the best version of me. 

One is the past. This is the first thing that comes to my mind. Something that I've picked up as a bunch of experiences that ought to define me. We have history in schools, that never ever interested me. There is something important in remembering when we came from, what makes our culture and to help us feel grateful of the current privileges. 

However, the ways I learned to look at my own past is through a lense of successes and so called failures. 

In the past few years I have learned to notice, though, that the past is only something that has brought me to where I am now. Sure, we I can beat myself for the past when I don't like where I am. This seems like a never ending game, though. It seems like I'm a child that can only understand the present and 

So much more important than looking for advice on today or tomorrow in the past is to look into the future. It was only within the last year that I've discovered that I can dream. I gradually recognized that I can imagine things and that I can think of things that I like, that I want. What's more, I've realised that I not only can I look at my wishes and my desires, I ought to see them as possibilities. This is exactly the opposite of how I used to use my mind to feel for what I wanted. 

This discovery made me feel both ridiculous for not knowing it before, and also so happy, that I can actually want things and I don't have to feel bad about it. Now I know, that it is one of the most crucial ways to adapt for a fulfilling life. How lucky, if you've known it all your life!

Not only, did this revelation allow me to see life more as an opportunity for the many many feelings I want to experience, but I also started seeing others and myself in a completely different light. 

I realised that I shouldn't feel worse than others for not having this or that skill, for not doing this or that that they are doing, but that I can and should feel inspired by those who